Depression hits again

On Sunday I had just finished working with a new client (very excited) and was waiting on my brother to call me so I could meet up with him and his family to spend time with the kiddos, my niece and nephew. Almost an hour passed and I didn’t hear from him. I knew they were dealing with an issue and would contact me when they were finished. Yet while I was waiting at my office and listening to a business podcast (it’s an entrepreneur thing), depression creeped in. It came out of nowhere as sad thoughts soon led to tears starting to flow.

Crap! (not truly what I thought but thought it best to keep this G rated) I immediately sent a text to my brother and told him I wasn’t feeling well and was heading home. En route thoughts of every imaginable reason as to why I was sad came crashing into my head space and the tears just flowed. I raised the windows, adjusted my sunglasses, turned off the radio, and spoke out loud the thoughts running through my mind. Just hearing them seemed like they carried less weight than what was happening in my head. Within the commute back home (about 35 minutes) I cried out my sadness and feelings of unworthiness. As I turned the corner heading towards the apartment I made a plan to feel more focused and centered once I was home for I didn’t want to continue wallowing in this misery.

Truth is I’ve been struggling with depression since as long as I could remember. I was “diagnosed” with depression when I was 18 years old and prescribed Paxil which I took for a few months. Yet I didn’t like how I felt when I was on them so I stopped and found other ways to cope with it.

Throughout my life I have fallen into bouts of depression which could last hours or days. The depression would be triggered by thoughts or sometimes after a traumatic event such as a loss of my loved ones. For example, I was triggered on Sunday because I was on an amazing high which was then popped by limiting beliefs. Doubts and insecurities, especially limiting beliefs of not feeling worthy or good enough are the struggles I have been dealing with throughout my life. Since I became an entrepreneur they have become stronger as I have been facing them head on.

I checked my face before I got out of the car and said to myself in the mirror: “Paty, it’s okay to cry. Now it’s time to move forward by listening to happy music and organizing your room and home office. You got this. You’re worth it and you are loved by many.”

With a sigh and a prayer to my spiritual guides for strength I moved on with the rest of my day.

Feeling sad and depressed is normal, it becomes a problem when it lingers for more than a day.

Fact is depression does have a habit of creeping in from time to time, especially just when things appear to be going so amazing.

Have you experienced that before?

I didn’t fight the depression or blame myself for feeling the way I was, I just allowed it to flow out of my system. Then I used my depression kicker of listening to happy music and cleaning up my living space so I didn’t feel more chaotic. My other favorite depression kickers are watching funny movies, going for walks outside, dancing, dropping orange essential oil in my diffuser, and calling uplifting friends.

If you struggle with depression what are ways that you move through it?

Leave a comment of your favorite tips.

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Love and hugs,

Paty,  La Mariposa  


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Bust Self-Sabotage

We are 2 weeks into 2017 and the biggest positive change for me has been my motivation. I have set goals with various time limits I am committed to. My motivation stems from focusing on my purpose to enhance my community, confidence, and commitment to my life and business. To me these goals are different from new year resolutions because my focus is not on changing for 2017 but doing it for life.

If you have worked with me in my coaching program then you know I like to set 1, 3, and 6 month goals for those are more realistic and practical. Regardless if you’re into setting resolutions or goals, one of the biggest issues you may face in following through is yourself. How often have you talked yourself out of going out for that walk or eating a salad or going to sleep before 1:00 am? I’m sure you have made an excellent case for skipping out doing what you know is good for you.

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Another way self-sabotage is common is when you feel that everything’s going just right then a negative thought comes in and your mood deflates.

For example, Monday I was rejoicing because I had just secured a weekly guided meditation opportunity I will be facilitating at House of Movement, a holistic gym in Brickell. As I was screaming excitedly in my car (yes windows were up) I then thought of someone I hadn’t spoken to in a bit and began to feel sadness especially as images scurried through my mind.

Fortunately, I caught myself as I realized I was hitting my limit of gratitude when life is treating me well and staying within that zone.

Sound familiar?

I want to reassure you that it’s not life that is dealing you a bad hand, but unfortunately it’s your thoughts that are keeping you down. As a counselor I knew about this and share it with my clients yet when it comes to my personal life that concept just flew out the window. In order to ensure I am aware of my limiting beliefs I picked from my bookshelf The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks*. I had read it before but felt called to read it again. This book was the first to be called into duty for following through on my goal to read 1 book a month or at least from start to finish, whichever comes first.

Last year I hit my limiting belief of not feeling worthy numerous times which caused me low motivation in moving forward with my business and becoming financially independent. Fortunately the universe knows of my gifts and pushed me through some of my hurdles, yet I can admit they were hard to crawl over at times. My clients mirrored this in me as they would mention how frustrating it is when they feel life is going well and then something (or some thought) comes into play which causes them to backtrack or so they thought.

So that’s why I believe Gay Hendricks* book called out to me so I can remember to move past my limiting beliefs, my self-doubts. One of the a-ha moments for me in the book, is our addiction to pain which causes us to poke our happy bubbles whenever they start to rise. This is related to a hidden fear that you may have or a limiting belief that you’re not worthy, you don’t deserve happiness or you’re not enough.

Today and everyday I challenge you to recognize when negative thoughts come into your mind, especially after a happy event, and shake them off. You can do this by dancing, walking into another room, putting on a happy song, playing with pets, etc. Point is do something physical rather than staying with your thoughts. I promise you will feel so much better.

Peace and love,

Paty, La Mariposa


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Are you worthy? Of course you are!!

Doubts of feeling worthy comes from fear which may have begun during childhood experiences. Fear is a word we all dread yet is a necessary part of our primal blueprint. It alerts us to danger which then activates our flight or fight response so we can act as we protect ourselves. However, fear can also be a deterrent as we begin to face new opportunities in life and push ourselves to be better.

Psychologically speaking, fear can cause us to hold back from achieving our dreams and being creative as doubts consume our thoughts. On a daily basis we may identify with more negative thoughts, such as “I am unworthy, I am not enough, I don’t have what it takes, I am not unique.” These are very strong statements and said often enough it will appear as though it’s true.

For the past 3 years I have felt fear and feelings of unworthiness stronger than before as I set on my path as an entrepreneur. Family wise, support is limited because they doubt I can be successful without a steady paycheck. However, I’m building a community of entrepreneurs, especially with women, who are showing me otherwise.

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Yet, fear continues to rear its ugly head and I procrastinate or stall or not accomplish what I say I will do which eats me up inside. Fortunately, I have asked my guardians/angels for support and they have willingly sent me people, books, resources, etc to assist me in challenging fear. I have now learned to embrace fear and identify when it’s present so I can decide to move forward.

Since then, I have taken a more proactive approach in my business as I step into the light. I am dedicated to writing you newsletters that are teachable moments, show my vulnerability and truth, while sharing tips and resources that have helped me along the way.

I recently recorded this video for myself and you as a reminder that We are Worthy and We are Enough. In this world of chaos and anger, we must be the light and peace we want to see more of in this world. Therefore, by stating“I am worthy and I am Enough” we can show up with confidence, peace, and being present.

Join me today in repeating these mantras on a daily basis. “I am Worthy and I am Enough.”

My purpose is to empower you on your healing journey and my mission is to offer you health-related insights, practical tips, inspiration and stories that will support you in living balanced towards a happy and healthy life as you embrace your joy and purpose.

Feel free to reply to this blog as I’d love to hear from you and pass this along to someone who may benefit from it as we all need love everyday!

Peace and love,  

Paty, La Mariposa