Paty, La Mariposa, Hernández
On Sunday I had just finished working with a new client (very excited) and was waiting on my brother to call me so I could meet up with him and his family to spend time with the kiddos, my niece and nephew. Almost an hour passed and I didn’t hear from him. I knew they were dealing with an issue and would contact me when they were finished. Yet while I was waiting at my office and listening to a business podcast (it’s an entrepreneur thing), depression creeped in. It came out of nowhere as sad thoughts soon led to tears starting to flow.
Crap! (not truly what I thought but thought it best to keep this G rated) I immediately sent a text to my brother and told him I wasn’t feeling well and was heading home. En route thoughts of every imaginable reason as to why I was sad came crashing into my head space and the tears just flowed. I raised the windows, adjusted my sunglasses, turned off the radio, and spoke out loud the thoughts running through my mind. Just hearing them seemed like they carried less weight than what was happening in my head. Within the commute back home (about 35 minutes) I cried out my sadness and feelings of unworthiness. As I turned the corner heading towards the apartment I made a plan to feel more focused and centered once I was home for I didn’t want to continue wallowing in this misery.
Truth is I’ve been struggling with depression since as long as I could remember. I was “diagnosed” with depression when I was 18 years old and prescribed Paxil which I took for a few months. Yet I didn’t like how I felt when I was on them so I stopped and found other ways to cope with it.
Throughout my life I have fallen into bouts of depression which could last hours or days. The depression would be triggered by thoughts or sometimes after a traumatic event such as a loss of my loved ones. For example, I was triggered on Sunday because I was on an amazing high which was then popped by limiting beliefs. Doubts and insecurities, especially limiting beliefs of not feeling worthy or good enough are the struggles I have been dealing with throughout my life. Since I became an entrepreneur they have become stronger as I have been facing them head on.
I checked my face before I got out of the car and said to myself in the mirror: “Paty, it’s okay to cry. Now it’s time to move forward by listening to happy music and organizing your room and home office. You got this. You’re worth it and you are loved by many.”
With a sigh and a prayer to my spiritual guides for strength I moved on with the rest of my day.
Feeling sad and depressed is normal, it becomes a problem when it lingers for more than a day.
Fact is depression does have a habit of creeping in from time to time, especially just when things appear to be going so amazing.
Have you experienced that before?
I didn’t fight the depression or blame myself for feeling the way I was, I just allowed it to flow out of my system. Then I used my depression kicker of listening to happy music and cleaning up my living space so I didn’t feel more chaotic. My other favorite depression kickers are watching funny movies, going for walks outside, dancing, dropping orange essential oil in my diffuser, and calling uplifting friends.
If you struggle with depression what are ways that you move through it?
Leave a comment of your favorite tips.
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Love and hugs,
Paty, La Mariposa
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The final days of 2016 are here. Tomorrow we will be celebrating the onset of 2017 with loved ones, whether humans or furry. However you decide to celebrate it, what counts is how you embrace the new year.
Lately I have been hearing from so many people how they are looking forward to 2017 so that they can put 2016 behind them. I used to say the same thing until I realized how much I was putting emphasis on the day or year changing than being grateful for what has occurred.
A few days ago I began to write a list of all I was grateful for in 2016, even the challenges. At first I wrote all that I was happy about; my physical health, my family, my travels, my business, financial gain, and then it got hard. I started to slow down and even cry when I thought of some of the sadness I experienced; anniversaries of loved ones, fears, finding love and losing it gain, frustrations with family, etc. This is part of the process of life. It is impossible to be happy 100% of the time, nor is it healthy.
Taking time to reflect is important even if it’s just a few minutes to identify what you’re grateful for and what struggles you have moved past. I created this handout to help you reflect on 2016 and start creating goals for 2017.
Another tool I learned a couple of years ago is to identify key words for the year. My words for 2017 will be abundant collaborations as I plan to work with other healers in creating amazing online programs and in person workshops to empower you to be the best you can be. So stay tuned!
What will your word or words be for 2017? Reply with your response as I’d love to hear from you.
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Paty, La Mariposa
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Doubts of feeling worthy comes from fear which may have begun during childhood experiences. Fear is a word we all dread yet is a necessary part of our primal blueprint. It alerts us to danger which then activates our flight or fight response so we can act as we protect ourselves. However, fear can also be a deterrent as we begin to face new opportunities in life and push ourselves to be better.
Psychologically speaking, fear can cause us to hold back from achieving our dreams and being creative as doubts consume our thoughts. On a daily basis we may identify with more negative thoughts, such as “I am unworthy, I am not enough, I don’t have what it takes, I am not unique.” These are very strong statements and said often enough it will appear as though it’s true.
For the past 3 years I have felt fear and feelings of unworthiness stronger than before as I set on my path as an entrepreneur. Family wise, support is limited because they doubt I can be successful without a steady paycheck. However, I’m building a community of entrepreneurs, especially with women, who are showing me otherwise.
Yet, fear continues to rear its ugly head and I procrastinate or stall or not accomplish what I say I will do which eats me up inside. Fortunately, I have asked my guardians/angels for support and they have willingly sent me people, books, resources, etc to assist me in challenging fear. I have now learned to embrace fear and identify when it’s present so I can decide to move forward.
Since then, I have taken a more proactive approach in my business as I step into the light. I am dedicated to writing you newsletters that are teachable moments, show my vulnerability and truth, while sharing tips and resources that have helped me along the way.
I recently recorded this video for myself and you as a reminder that We are Worthy and We are Enough. In this world of chaos and anger, we must be the light and peace we want to see more of in this world. Therefore, by stating“I am worthy and I am Enough” we can show up with confidence, peace, and being present.
Join me today in repeating these mantras on a daily basis. “I am Worthy and I am Enough.”
My purpose is to empower you on your healing journey and my mission is to offer you health-related insights, practical tips, inspiration and stories that will support you in living balanced towards a happy and healthy life as you embrace your joy and purpose.
Feel free to reply to this blog as I’d love to hear from you and pass this along to someone who may benefit from it as we all need love everyday!
Peace and love,
Paty, La Mariposa